What Does it Mean??

'Darlyn', 'Sweetheart', 'Lovely', 'Dear'.... every time members of my high school meet each other, these terms of endearment are thrown out, among many others; accompanied by the 'oh my gosh I've missed you' sentence. This is regardless of the relationship said individuals had in the past, which is what bewilders mi.

"Hey dear, oh my gosh I can't believe it's been so long, how have you been?" But the truth is I can believe it has been this long. Mostly because I have actively invested some effort to make it so. I took proactive steps to avoid searching for you on social media, making myself easily findable, going to events you are likely to show up at, etc, to avoid having to deal with you again. Because when I saw you constantly, the experience was not positive for mi. Why then am I required to produce, amidst huge grins, excitement and outstretched arms, a sentence synonymous to the one above, conveying feelings I did not feel, currently do not feel and probably will not be feeling in the future, simply because we went to school together in the past??

Frenemies??

This is in no way mi advocating for grudge holding, or directed at anyone in particular. Just a curious observation. Why can't I ignore you if I choose to, by virtue of  our history and not have our roles switch - with mi becoming the bad one??

Tired, maybe I'm currently delirious.

xoxo

Mi