Diamonds in the soles of her shoes.

This probably has little to do with the title technically, unless you are aware of the context and characters that inspired this post. What does it mean to have feelings for someone?? Recently, I find myself unable to tell a lot of things when it comes to emotional awareness, except the distinct fact that I don't have feelings for a person....or anyone in general at the moment.
This is more pronounced in the fact that on the flip side, I find other people's ability/experience of having feelings for another fascinating. The same way watching a science experiment occur is fascinating.
What does that feel like?? The emotional tingling I assume is there - represented in the form of physical sensations.

The lady with diamonds spent a good portion of time fighting off feelings for a guy who is being politely hurtful unintentionally. I spend the time trying to figure out how the feelings occur to begin with. What does that feel like?? How does that work?? I vaguely recall the butterflies from over a decade ago, but I wouldn't consider that 'love' like now.
They guy has more of the physical feelings, another aspect I'm not fully accustomed to either. Does that make mi asexual?? I don't think so, not by the dictionary definition that is.

Sometimes I sit and dream. Imagine and dream of what any of this would feel like. Love, lust, pain, hurt. I dream and let my imagination roam, then I put it all back in the safety box and continue my existence.