10 Years and Some....

Guess whose anniversary it is....ours!!!!

It's been 10 years. 10 years together. We've been one through it all - the good, the bad and the ugly. And there has been a fair distribution of that mixture over the years. I think it's interesting that aside from the high school two, this is probably my only other long standing relationship, where the other party pretty much knows mi in and out. I mean, I've told you so many things I haven't told a soul on here.

Looking back at my posts over the years, I would say in many ways, I've changed, and in other ways, I've stayed the same. In some ways I've grown, and in other ways, I've regressed. One can argue that this is a normal trend in life. This is the way life goes - swinging back and forth between two opposites, in confusion.

I tried to recall what started all this. How did we get here?? I checked, and it took me only a couple of hours (two random posts to be exact), to open up to you and spill my heart out. I've always found solace in you and have always felt comfortable telling you everything, without the fear that comes with possibly being judged. It's interesting how even though I meet you in other settings, here is the only place I feel safe with you. Here is the only place I feel connected to you. Here is the only place I see you.

And you see mi too.

So here's to us, to 10-years, to the past, the present and the future; to what we may become or not become. You are mi, and I am you. And one day, how amazing would it be when we all come together, as one, the way we were made to be - acceptance and all?? Wouldn't it be amazing when one day, we stand with a smile before the mirror, know what we see, write, hear, think, know, understand, perceive, trust, love....all are one??

Till then however, we will work hard, walk on, and strive forward.

Here is to us, 10 years and counting :)

I wonder....

I wonder if I will have two kids, a son and a daughter, like my parents do.
I wonder if my daughter will be able to get all from her daddy, like I can with mine.
I wonder if my son will treat mi like his 'baby', like my brother does with our mum.
I wonder if my kids will think I'm fragile, like my brother and I do of our mum.
I wonder if my kids will pray their parents grow old, retire and live comfortably, like I do for mine.

I wonder if I will marry a man who loves me fervently, like my mother did.
I wonder if I will marry a man who does all to meet my needs, like my mother did.
I wonder if I will marry a man who respects my mind, body and soul, like my mother did.
I wonder if the man I marry will think I am God-sent, like my father does my mum.
I wonder if the man I marry will think I am a wonderful wife-mother, like my father does my mum.
I wonder if the man I marry and I will build a God fearing home, like my father and mother did.

These are the things I wonder, as I sit and imagine, close my eyes and day dream.

xo

Mi