So....

someone else. Well more like I’m mad he doesn’t like mi I guess. I don’t think I want  a relationship, I just want him to like mi. And I hate the feeling. Especially cause he likes my friend. A lot. 

I want to go home. Sleep in the parking lot, I don’t care. Anywhere but hers. I’m not fit to drive. I shouldn’t be behind the wheels. But I guess I like him more then I thought and I can’t be with her. I just want to be with myself. 

He likes her. 
He dotes on everyone. I want to go home. 

I like him. 

I don’t want this.  

I’m tired

So, take mi home....

I don’t like him.

 I just want the attention and I was mad about that. 

I just liked feeling special and got mad when it was taken away. 

....Lead Mi To The Cross....

I want to come to a place where He is my best friend. My go to. My source or solace. My rock. The one I turn to in distress, in times of need, in fear, in joy, in laughter, in pain, in all things. 

I want to come to a place where His voice is what I hear before I make a decision in life, major or minor. Before I take a step, life changing or no. Before I do anything. 

I want to come to a place where I know Him, and still desire to know him more. Where I long to read His word. Where I thirst and hunger to commune with him and dwell in his presence. 

I want to come to a place where I can call him Father and truly see His work as my heavenly Father in mi. Where I know He will guide my path in love, and I know and am willing to let him. 

I want to come to a place where I believe that His thoughts and plans towards mi are for good and not for evil, to bring mi to an expected end. Where I understand these words. Where I am able to honestly believe and let go with faith. 

I want to come to a place where I can honestly stand proud and call myself his child, without the lingering feeling of guilt and shame. Where I can have an answer to the statement, 'tell me your testimony....'