ONE HUNDRED TRUTHS ABOUT ME

Saw this on a friend's blog and decided it should be fun. Not particularly busy at the moment so what harm would it be?? hehe. 

LASTS

1. Last drink:

Water

2. Last phone call:

Friend from work

3. Last text message:

Friend from long before.

4. Last song you listened to:

Malogede, Timaya ft Terry G

5. Last time you cried:

Been a while, thankfully

 SIX HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice:

Yes

7. Been cheated on:

Yes technically

8. Kissed someone:

Yes

9. Lost someone special:

Yes… too many to count

10. Been depressed:

lol spent most of my teenage years in this alley, now not so much thank God.

11. Been drunk and threw up:

Mmmm.....nope but close

 LIST FOUR FAVORITE COLOURS:

12. Black
13. Purple
14. Blue
15. Peach

HAVE YOU:

16. Made new friends:

Yes, I move a lot so kinda need to

17. Fallen out of love:

Nope

18. Laughed until you cried:

Yes

19. Met someone who changed you:

Can't say I have

20. Found out who your true friends were:

Yes, I've always known.

21. Found out someone was talking about you:

Yep, it hurt like hell then, but if I find out now, lol idcare.

22. Kissed anyone on your friends list:

Yes. ><

23. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life:

A number of them actually!!

25. Do you have any pets:

Nooo but I want a kitty-kat so bad!!!!

26. Do you want to change your name:

Lol why ever?? Thats the cutest thing about mi plus it personifies who I have always been... to a fault lol.

27. What did you do for your last birthday:

Had an amazing day with my mum, brother and friends.

28. What time did you wake up today:

Officially 1pm. >< (I'm off today). 

29. What were you doing at midnight last night:

Talking to a friend on skype.

30. Name something you CANNOT wait for:

Settle down-ish.

31. Last time you saw your father:

Christmas in England, 2011. Been too long!!!!

32. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life:

My obsession about my weight and how I view myself/think others view mi sometimes. Also my innate desire to please all. 

33. What are you listening to right now:

The silence.

34. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom:

Too many, I even have a cousin named Tom.

35. What’s getting on your nerves right now?:

My boredom.

36. Most visited webpage:

Mangago.Its always on my tab.

37. Current city:

Chiba, Japan

38. Nicknames:

Baby, Babygirl (mainly family), Babe (only one person calls mi this haha), Mi, Mi-chan, sometimes AiMi....I refuse to go back in time for others. 

39. Relationship Status:

Single and needing a change. Kinda bored of it. 

40. Zodiac Sign:

Capricon

41. Male or female or transgendered:

So female. I wished to be Male at some point, don't know what I was thinking lol

42. Primary School:

International Unity School. 

43. Middle School:

Still unsure what school 

44. High school:

Loyola Jesuit College (ugh, this place)

45. Hair color:

Black

47. Height:

5'1 (I like to think its 5'2 but my best friend would vehemently disagree so). 

48. Do you have a crush on someone:

Right now? Nope.

49: What do you like about yourself:

My tenacity when it comes to something I love, my love of languages, the fact that I am immensely loved by God (Even when I clearly don't deserve it), my family, my dad and mum (yup, separate entities), my brother....gosh I actually do love quite a lot about myself contrary to past tales.

50. Piercings: Ears and belly

51. Tattoos:

....

52. Righty or Lefty:

Both but writing with my right hand....everything else I tend to do with my left.

FIRSTS:

53. First Surgery:

This year.

54. First Piercing:

Ears, when I was born I think.

55. First Best Friend:

Tolu Kehinde....haha we were so adorable then.

56. First Sport you Joined:

Sport? Whats that? lol. I think track team in Loyola lol. 

57. First Pet:

Some dog my family owned (as you can tell, I'm not a big fan of the canine breed)

58. First Vacation:

Inside Nigeria – To Kagoma, Outside - England

59. First Concert:

Never been. The idea of all those people in one room scares the crap out of mi. Also, I don't know if I'd want to pay to go see someone sing live, I tend to not like every song a celebrity sings so.... (I bought a concert video once and before it was half way done I was bored....so I guess I'm not a concerty person). 

60. First Crush:

Feyi Kehinde (Oh how he would love this haha). 

RIGHT NOW:

61. Eating:

Nothing. Need to fix that

62. Drinking:

Nothing

63. Already missing:

My friends and family

64. I’m about to:

Shower and study for the GRE

65. Listening to:

My Japanese neighbors talking through the VERY thin walls of my house.

66. Thinking about:

Best way to speed up my Korean learning.

67. Waiting for:

My posting

YOUR FUTURE:

68. Want kids:

Yup. 2 born, 2 adopted....still iffy if I want a girl in that mix. Maybe one. 

69. Want to get married:

Yup. But I don't know if I'd ever find the guy who can accomodate all my crazies and has the right cultural mix lol.

70. Careers in mind:

Forensic Psychologist (Dr). Already one but need the PhD to get the Dr part. 

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?

71. Lips or eyes:

Eyes....lips....I guess eyes more cus, though I can't stand ugly lips.

72. Hugs or kisses:

Can't I have both??

73. Shorter or taller:

Taller.

74. Older or Younger:

I don’t mind either but I’ve never dated younger. Younger would have to be max a yr though. Can't have someone either of my brother's ages....scratch that, Older only lol. 

75. Romantic or spontaneous:

Romantically spontaneous. I like romance but I don't want to be acting some chic flick all the same. 

76. Nice stomach or nice arms:

Nice stomach. I'm not doing anything with the arms....lol 

77. Sensitive or loud:

I'm both loud and sensitive I think so not sure....unless I don't understand the question.

78. Hook-up or relationship:

Relationship. Hook-ups are a chore.

79. Trouble maker or hesitant:

Trouble maker. I'm hesitant, we can't have two of those.

HAVE YOU EVER:

81. Drank hard liquor:

Lmao, is there any other kind??

82. Lost glasses/contacts:

Glasses, once I believe.

83. Kissed on 1st date:

Nope. 

84: Broken someone’s heart:

Once. He didn't speak to mi for a year afterwards!! Brutal!!

85. Had your own heart broken:

Yea once, and it was the worst feeling ever.

86. Been arrested:

Nope. My father would disown mi speedily and I would automatically become poor among other things. I wasn't built for poverty and lovelessness. lol. 

87. Turned someone down:

Yes! With more I should have. 

88. Cried when someone died:

Last time I cried when someone died was the plane crash. After that, each time seems like something out there....kind of detached. Scary really. 

89. Liked a friend that is of the same sex:

Nope, but I won't be all that shocked if it happened. 

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

90. Yourself:

Ya. I try to more and more daily.

91. Miracles:

All the time. My life is a testimony.

92. Love at first sight:

Whats that??

93. Heaven:

Ya I have to. There are people whose deaths made no sense to mi and my only consolation was that they would be in Heaven and I can see them again if I do well with Christ. Take that away and life becomes purposeless. Also, there are people who were designed for Hell and it won't be fair for them to end up in the same place as others if there is no Heaven....

94. Santa Claus:

Lol, even as a kid I didn't. 

95. Kissing on the first date:

If it happens, sure. 

96. Angels:

Ya, but not the Hollywood version. 

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

97. Is there one person you want to be with right now?:

I haven't met him yet.

98. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time?:

Nope.

99. Wish you could change things in your past?:

Ya a lot, oh wow quite a lot.

100. Are you posting this as 100 Truths?:

Yep

Well that was fun. It even took my mind off what I initially wanted to write about haha. Now off to shower, eat then study....not necessarily in that order. 

When

When you realize its been a while since your last kiss....

lol was trying to make this into a poem but couldn't think of anything beyond that line so words it is. I think this is just from watching too many movies, but I do miss kisses. Well from Tv they seem like so much fun....from experience, I'd say I only miss kissing one person....lol. Which is silly considering I didn't have of a relationship with him. I mean apart from what everyone knows about him on the surface....wait thats a lie, I do know somethings the general public don't know. It is amazing how much you can find out about someone in a night....and how little as well I guess. But maybe it is because we were both unserious it worked out so well. I mean with all other planned situations....well history can speak for herself. 

But not all kisses are worth counting. For the most part, you only miss the ones that were real. And sadly, not necessarily the ones with the 'significant other'. You know that random moment where you meet this guy, usually at a club (how these things happen), and theres that connection - eyes et al - and then the kiss.....

Sorry, I deviated. 

Does that make mi Horrible??

In all my years, I have finally come to realize something. I am not good with distance period. Not just in relationships - boy/girl ish - but in general. With friends, family, humans in general....and I guess that is a bad thing. Its almost like 'out of sight, out of mind'. I guess its because a while back I got accustomed to the philosophy that everyone leaves, and to protect myself from getting hurt, I let them go as they do. Yeah I gather it is totally selfish of mi to do that, but at the same time, isn't everyone selfish in some areas?? Doesn't everyone who tries to protect him/herself have an element of selfishness in them to have that accomplished?? 

The question isn't if I am or am not right now, but if I want to do something about it. 

And my answer is I don't know.

For one thing, a relationship is a two way thing. So if you notice i am pulling away, albeit unintentionally, and you let mi go, doesn't that make my philosophy proven then?? But at the same time, there are those people who do try to keep in touch....but still I feel the relationship slipping away. 

But at the same time, there are those people who I have had a completely long distance relationship with, and we are still fine. So does that mean they are more important to mi?? I'd like to think not....

....Weird huh....

Mi and relationships is like going to see a good movie. Even though you don't want it to, at some point, the movie does come to an end. You walk out with mixed feelings. A little sad it is over, but then you smile as you remember the good moments. And though the movie is over, you will always smile when you think about it. Doesn't that mean the movie is important to you?? Does it make it less important than the series you watch continuously?? No right?? I mean they are both types of 'screen shows' but they are different. 

I dont know, I guess am rambling. Partly cause I thought of a few friends I have not kept in contact with and felt a little guilty. Also partly because I am at a cross road in life and everyone is looking at mi and waiting for mi to make a decision. And I am sitting here wondering if it is okay for mi to be selfish in my decision. I mean in my head I understand, but in my heart, I know I want to be selfish. I guess I learned the hard way already that ultimately, I control my own happiness. Shouldn't it be okay for mi to choose what makes mi happy, despite the fact that others might not like it??

Does that make mi a horrible person??

One Night Only

I met this guy,
He was cute, different, funny and not my type.
He loved another and thought I did too.
Which was fine cus I found it funny.
We laughed, we played, we hugged, he kissed,
And with the morning light, he was gone again.


We both said it won't work out.
We both said in a different life it might have been fun.
We both said we were both perfect.
We both knew not for each other.
We both agreed to go our separate ways.


But I did laugh while I was with him.
But I did say my mind with him.
But I did feel like we were on the same plane.
But I did help him with his problems as well.
And I did love him for one night only.