Hey,
It's been a while since you've drifted through my mind, even longer since I remembered the last interaction - ironically the first in months - we ever had. The way we abruptly ended taught me that I never wanted to have any regrets in life. You leaving hurt just as everyone else's did; except more because I never got to know "why." Our friend knows why, or at least she says she does. But wouldn't it be silly and selfish of mi to ask her about it now, 12 years later?? I'm sure she loved you more, or at least in a different way than I did. I'm okay now though. The pain, guilt, regret, hurt....all those are gone. I smile now when I think of you. Not a happy smile, more wishful in nature, but not sad either. I've also learned to let go when I can't figure out how, when or why someone is upset with mi and would not say....well that depends on the someone. Because heaven knows that if I had the chance back then and now, I would stalk you like I did before to make up with you, get you to smile and laugh with mi once more. I would give anything to know that my worst fears, the words I was told back then are not true, and that you are in deed fine and resting peacefully. Anything to know that I would definitely see you smile and laugh again.
xo
Mi
