Wishful thinking....

I've been thinking, is it wrong to want to have some fun and excitement, even though you know for sure you would not be satisfied if what you do is not dangerous or daring? I mean one way or the other, a monotonous life becomes what its called monotonous! It really never gets any better than yesterday. You do the same thing over, and over and over again. Thats why I don't think I can stand a desk job. Not that I have anything against those who do it right now or who plan on going into that, I mean, to each his own right?

So now that I have said the first stage of my thoughts, lets go on. What do I do that would make my life fun right now? I've already given up on trying to stay on the good side of everyone, especially those that I really couldn't care less about in a couple of years when I move, and since most of the people whose opinions count know would take me as I present myself, I think I am free to play a little game right? I mean, it really has been a while. I guess the only problem I have is the fact that when I start, I usually have to play till the end or game over - not that that has ever occurred, game over I mean - and I don't think I am quite ready to make such a commitment yet you know. No scratch that, I think am just being too freaking lazy right now. lol.
Well since I have decided that I want to play a game, I need to make sure the factors and the other players are involved. I mean there is not fun playing a game with no goal or prize now is there? Thats almost as bad as just living. lol. Don't get me wrong, I do love living. But then simply 'living' is like standing still in a game world. There is no fun in that. You have to figure out what the price or goal is, and then aim for it. So I need to work out the kicks for the game, the other players, if I can stand to have any, and the goals for each level.

If you are still trying to figure this out, I am talking about mind games. And yes, I know I probably sound pretty much on the crazy side right now, but the good part is, thats all part of the fun. Being a little crazy, and having something to talk about and possibly get high over in the end...

Because am tired and I really have nothing else to say right now, no scratch that, I don't feel like saying anything else right now, I'll just go, and leave you to ponder over the mystery of the crazy that is Mi.

Ja-Nee